this has got to be the longest week of my life.
seriously worse then anticipate, then passing my due date with silas.
yes… worse than 41+weeks in the middle of the summer.
i usually look forward to christmas and it is so exciting to me.
nope, not this year. and it sucks.
i keep trying to tell myself, ‘snap out of it’, ‘get over yourself’, etc…
but i can’t shake it. i can’t sleep. i have had a tension headache for 4 days straight.
my stomach is churning. im frustrated.
frustrated i am not excited.
frustrated i cant see past my frustration.
frustrated at life.
frustrated with circumstances.
frustrated i can’t control anything.
frustrated i dont know when or how or why.
frustrated because this isn’t supposed to how it was supposed to be.
please Heavenly Father. give me peace. give me patience. calm my heart. calm my anxiety. lower my expectations. enjoy these moments and these days. help me to trust. help me to not be selfish.