I had one of those days today… not bad, not emotional, not really anything I could put my finger on. The closest thing I think I could relate my feelings to would be “waiting expectantly”.
I’m waiting expectantly for God to do great things in my life. Don’t get me wrong. He has already done above and beyond what I could have ever imagined. I am very blessed, and I am enjoying this new stage in life. However, all the girl friend time, special cuddles with Silas, and many other blessings I still miss my guy. I see other little families, or hear friends talk about their husbands, and I can’t help but miss mine. God has given us this time apart for a reason. I’m not quite sure what that reason is, but I’m trying to learn and glean all I can from this time of separation.
As I was working around the house this afternoon David Crowder Band came on my iTunes with “Only You”. I feel like this is the longing of my heart, but I’m not sure how well I am doing in actually surrendering my life. But I guess the first step is always knowing what you need to do and trying to do it.
Heavenly Father, Please…
Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it upto You who’s throned
And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord
Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
You’re my delights, be my everything
And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now
You should see the view
When it’s only You
I’m excited for this season of life to end [The Brock being gone part], But I am trying to enjoy everything God has given me here and now…
-Internet & Skype
-A cute little man, Silas
-Amazing neighbors and who are a great support
-Living in Old Town Orange.
-Lots of friends to enjoy time with!! (I love my Crunch Mama Friends!)
-A great Sunday School class
-Looking forward to 2 great trips this fall… Nashville to see my sister & Yosemite/Nor Cal for a dear friend’s wedding & to see my friend Laura
-A great family who always feeds me, holds my baby and is great company!
…trying to remember there is always beauty in the breakdown and I’m looking for the beauty in surrender….